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Quinny opens up about his moment of madness

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ALAN Quinlan revealed how he descended into darkness after a 14 week suspension ruled him out of the Lions tour.
In his autobiography Red-Blooded, launched this week, he speaks openly about how he was haunted by the moments surrounding the eye-gouging incident in last yearโ€™s the Heineken Cup semi-final.
โ€œSo, in the minutes, hours, days weeks and months that came after the Leo Cullen incident, I replayed it all in my mind. Again and againโ€.

The player defended his action and spoke about the moments surrounding the incident.
โ€œDid I think: โ€˜Now, if I angle my fingers just right, I might be able to gouge Leoโ€™s eyeballs, cause him serious, long-term injury, possibly put him out of work, but I need to be careful because the ref is nearby and the TV cameras might pick it up?
โ€œDid I think that? No,โ€ wrote Quinlan.
Quinlan feels his reputation as a confrontational player didnโ€™t help.
โ€œI have a tough reputation and I catch a lot of flak for being mouthy and for giving away stupid penalties but Iโ€™m not a dirty playerโ€.
After the game he said that the problem grew:
โ€œWithin hours of the disappointment of losing a Heineken Cup semi-final to Leinster, i was battling something much deeper and much darker.
โ€œI sank into depression which took me months to get out of and, by the end, I knew how lucky I was to have come up for air againโ€.
The suspension coupled with defeat to Munster bitter rivals Leinster was difficult to take.
โ€œWeโ€™ve lost to Leinster in a Heineken Cup semi-final. Our semi-final. The one we were supposed to win. the one that was supposed to be a prelude to winning our second Heineken Cup in a row – the only Irish team to do so. It was to be a Munster first. We were going to write Munster history, Irish historyโ€.
Quinlan also wrote about how Tipperary hurling legend Nicky English had noticed something was amiss before the provinceโ€™s 25-6 defeat in that game sensed that something was lacking.
โ€œAs an athlete who has achieved a lot, heโ€™d seen something as an outsider that we hadnโ€™t, it was obviously something small but it was there, nonethelessโ€.
He writes about the pressure of being subjected to the intense glare of the media.
โ€œItโ€™s a funny experience being in the public eye. people think they own you, that you are public propertyโ€.

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